Music

Music would just happen to be my escape from it all. If you knew me at all, you would know that if I'm posting a whole lot of lyrics or music links on my Facebook, something is going on that I'm trying to run away from. Obviously I can't run away from everything forever, but it gives me a nice break.

I can find any song to match any mood. I make a habit out of searching for new music to explain a new feeling or point in life that I'm at. Or if I want to change my mood, it's as simple as finding the right song. I just listen to it over and over. Soon enough I forget my problems and am completely immersed in the music.

Sometimes I wish that I was brilliant enough to write music, but nothing ever turns out the way I would really want it to. Adding that to the fact that when something magically falls together, I don't have the means to make it into the music I'd want to hear. Kinda puts a damper on my desire to write music that people want to hear and relate to.

With all the music that I'm finding these days I sometimes second guess myself. Most of my favorite music is just a bunch of random thoughts and feelings slammed together into one confusing yet amazing track with an equally confusing yet amazing instrumental behind it. It can't be that hard to say what you're thinking and find someone brilliant with music to put it together with, right? Meh, high hopes.

Drowning

I'm drowning right in front of everyone and not a damn person can see it. I wonder if anyone even cares? How can he not care? Is it all a joke? Has it all just been a joke? I really, really thought that that we were going to beat the stereotype. After last week, and after today.. I just can't do it anymore