I Want To Feel Pretty

I remember when I used to be the hot sister. I was the one with the rockin bod, with guys clamoring for my attention. I was the girl who could just snap her fingers and POOF someone would have no problem getting me whatever I though I just had to have right then and there.

Now I'm setting here, technically obese, my smile has never looked worse. I don't fit in my clothes, my makeup never looks how it should. I could go on and on and on.

Why do I have zero confidence these days? Why don't I ever follow through with changing? Why can't I fix things at all anymore?