Stuck In A Rut

I feel like I'm getting no where. I should be finishing up my sophomore year of college, but nope, I'm not even technically out of freshman status yet. I should be out getting shit done, but I can't even get the house picked up everyday. I should be pulling in some decent cash, but I'm not making enough money to support my family. Obviously, I'm stressed out.

Then add onto that the fact that I know SO MANY PEOPLE who are living off the system and just living life up. Getting their nails done, going tanning, getting their hair professionally done, buying clothes/shoes ALL THE TIME all while working a minimum wage job (if working at all) and paying like $300 in bills MAX a month. After everything that's happening lately, I seriously understand why people abuse the system like they do. I mean Kyle and I make THIRTY FUCKING FIVE CENTS too much an hour (combined) to live in income restricted housing. I got my new job to make things easier for us, but apparently it only made things worse. A regularly priced two bedroom apartment in JOCO is at LEAST $800, and that's for iffy places.

Seriously, why even try? I could easily just go back to working my crap job and be able to afford to live. Everything is such a catch twenty two that its ridiculous. I have no idea what I would do if we didn't have my parents and Kyle's parents close by. We would have to live off of one single income because there's no way in hell we could afford daycare around here PLUS rent PLUS bills PLUS emergencies.

I just hope that things actually turn around here in the next few years. I know that I'm only nineteen and that I'm doing a lot better than most nineteen year olds, but its rather hard to be patient when you have a family counting on you....